BLEH BLAH BLEH WHATEVER

YOU SUCK.

LIKE TOTALLY.

You Are EVIL

Do I owe you in my past life?
Why do I have to suffer under your wrath now?
You are evil and scheming.
You are scary ; Real scary.
You used me before and now you throw me aside after using me.
ONCE AGAIN IT HAPPENS.
Didn't you ever learn your lesson?

I would not hesitate to swear here.
You are one sucker evil act cute scheming woman.
So what you are beautiful cute and likable?
I do know that everyone likes you.
EVERYONE. Especially guys.
SO WHAT?
You have a bad personality and a black heart.
Scheming too scheming till it's scary.
I can never beat you in anything.

I JUST HOPE THAT I WOULD NEVER EVER HAVE ANY CONNECTIONS WITH YOU AGAIN.
NEVER EVER AGAIN WILL I FALL INTO YOUR PLANNED TRAP!
NEVER!
LEAVE ME ALONE MAN!
MY LIFE IS MUCH MUCH BETTER WITHOUT YOU.
YOU ARE A BAD FRIEND.
BAD BAD BADDY

And you Do affect my mood EVEY SINGLE TIME;
If you ever do realise that.

MIXED ; JUMBLED

Iam so having mixed feelings.
And I don't know why.
Like I did something Iam not supposed to...
My stomach is all jumbled up and it seems that it had been tied in knots.
My throat seemed stuck.
Okay, maybe I know.
It might be because of what you juse said.
' I thought you won't want to eat so ex de? '
It got me thinking of why you said that.
My gut feelings.
Should I or should I not go for the feast?

And even though I got a job;
I didn't feel particularly happy.
It should be because that it was you who recommend me the job.
I used to think we couldn't be friends like before.
I wanted to cut all ties with you and never contact you again.
But you keep recommeding jobs to me like we are best of friends.
But I know we are not.
And you know it too.
It's just totally awkward between us.
We didn't have much to talk about.
You changed and I changed.
There's a lot of awkward pauses when we meet up;
When we talk;
Or when we are on the phone.
It's SO SO awkward to meet up with you.
I don't know what you are thinking.
I can't guess.
I can't read you.
I just hope to disappear at that moment when the awkward pauses appear.
And now I owe you favours cause you recommended me jobs.
Maybe you asked me because maybe you felt that you are definitely better than me?
I don't know.
What I do know is that I definitely felt inferior when Iam with you.
You are skinner; prettier ; your skin is good ; you excel in both sports and studies.
How can I ever compare with you?
You seem more independent now and very cold too.
I feel like Iam standing next to an iceberg.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to think.
Why do you find me?
Why?
What should I do?
Get me out of this awkardness.
Help me.

I've got no friends.

NICE~~

This is very nice :D
Nice song Nice voice Nice chorus Cute guy
Lol
I like the chorus most :D

The only thing is that the voice and mouth don't match :D

A Teenager's Life

Lol
I think Iam on my teenager road or something..
Whatever you call them..
Lol

I've got a sudden urge to be loved or love someone...
Gosh I wanted a relationship..
What am I thinking?!?!
Alamak
Very crazy of me to think of such stuffs...
Lucky only mei xuan could see this... :P
So pai sei sia... :p

Haizzz...
Can't believe I won't be going to the same school or see my friends again...
Except for that time when we get our results...
Some go JC some go poly...
Some go this course some go that course...
So even if we go into same poly or JC...
We might not go into the same course or see each other...
Which also means I won't get to see you...
My first crush too.
And some other infatuations...
Lol
I think they all look cute... :p

GOSH
See see that's what I call ' the road to teenager doom '
Lol
Kks I made that up...
I mean the teenager doom thing...
Can't think of what represented this so I just anyhow make something out.. :p

Haizz...
Having crushes are like so 辛苦 sia...
Plus all the crushes I have is like so wrong de...
They all have somebody else that they like de lor...
Den is like definitely no chance de...
Chanceless ; Hopeless
Plus nxt year all will change again...
But I will never ever forget the first crush I had...
Cause it's a FIRST...

Yeap...
All will change nxt year...
I will have to continue to be optimistic...
But Iam not sure how long I can be optimistic...

This is driving me nutty...
Lol
I seem desperate...
LOL and DOUBLE LOL

A Night To Remember ❤ NCHS Prom Night

On 20/11/2009.
I went for my first prom.
I wore my first dress.
I put on my first make up.
However it is so little that I can't even see it myself.
And wore shoes that are quite girl.
Although it's not heels.
It was the first time that Iam so girl.
Even if it wasn't womanly girl but it was still girl to me.
Iam like a tomboy mahh.
:P
Like gosh I can't even believe it myself.
But it happened.
I gave quite a lot of my first to this prom.
Man...should be honoured.
I should nave just wore some manly clothes.
LOL
But...It was great experience.
I did have fun.
I took photos.
I did these before...lol...
Running around to get pictures of those I know.
Cause if not, I would not have the chance anymore.
Even though I didn't manage to get pictures of everyone.
I did manage to get some pictures with those I never thought I would take with...
If it wasn't charmaine and valerie that went to take with them first, I wouldn't even get the chance to take pictures with them too...
Lol I was so nervous.
Scary nervous.
But I didn't manage to get to take some photos with a few others.
I don't have the courage to go up to them.
Lol
But...
It was definitely a night to remember ❤


Iam happy today :D
Super duper happy :D

2012!!!

THERE'S JUST ONE WORD FOR IT!


FABULOUSA

AMAZING


OK MAYBE TWO WORDS

IT'S TOO NICE TO CONVEY THROUGH WORDS!

I HEART 2012 THE MOVIE!!

AWKWARDNESS

There's only one word for yesterday...

AWKWARDNESS

You changed a lot.
So much that I think I don't know you anymore.
You have thined down so so much.
I can see your bones poking.
How don't know how you did that.
But it's shocking.
I think yesterday was our last outing officially.
I guess we won't get to see or go out again after this.
Actually I can't even strike a conversation with you now.
We didn't even talk much yesterday.
You feel so far away.
Let yesterday be the last.
Because all I can feel is awkwardness between us.
My friend my Sec3 that I know is gone.
Hope all there's left is happy memories.

OVERWHELMED WITH EMOTIONS

Iam so overwhelmed with emotions.
Graduation yesterday.
Four years past just like that.
Even though ours is not the best class or something.
I will miss all the years I spent in NCHS.
I will miss my class.
I will miss some people.
I will miss trainings.
I will miss Basketball.
I will miss SCHOOL.
Sang the school song yesterday.
This is the first time we all sang the school song that loudly.
Should be our last official school song le.
Nearly cried yesterday.
And cried like crazy today when I think about yesterday.
I DON'T WANT TO GRADUATE MAN.
Iam always the one who can't bear to leave.
Maybe Iam scared of leaving my comfort zone.
Iam scared of the totally new environment I will be facing.
Iam scared that I will not get to see you anymore.
Iam scared that I will get to peek at you again.
Haiz..Didn't bring my camera to take photos yesterday.
I so REGRET it now.
And I look so stupid in all the photos I took yesterday.
I closed my eyes in all photos.
So Iam not posting them.
All those memories flashed past.
All my friends;All those happy moments.
I cried like mad.
I can still continue to cry now.
WHY?

p.s. Talked to someone whom I thought would never talk to me.
p.p.s. I JUST LOVE ' I DO I DO' !!! :D

All I Can Say Is Whao

whao!
iam pretty amazed :D
how cool is this?!
imagine this scene happening in S'pore...
well can't really imagine it... cos it will never happen..
i guess?
what do you think?

好累，好累

友情这游戏，我真的玩腻了。
好像放弃。
朋友这东西，好难搞。
难道我这一辈子就注定被朋友耍得团团转吗？
被朋友以往，抛弃？
为什么要找到一个和我合得来，又能长久的做我的朋友的人是这么的难？
为什么我每次都被遗忘？
为什么？！
我总觉得，游人都会在我背后说我的坏话。
因为我和朋友的友情常常逗会在一天内有360度的转变。
我不觉得我有槐花给别人说啊。
还是我多心了呢？
朋友啊，朋友。
我几时才能遇到我的知己呢？

今天哭了一场。
挺舒服的。好像在哭多一点。

INSPIRED

I have decided.

If i could have a supernatural power;
I would like to communicate with animals. :D

I have to say this.
Steve Irwin is one cool wildlife warrior.
MAN.

Steve and Me.
This book really inspire me. ❤

TIME CHECK

ah crap.
O's in 47 days....
D:

LEOS ROCK!! :D

Generous, Warmhearted, Creative, Enthusiastic, Broad-Minded, Expansive, Faithful and Loving

Pompous, Patronizing, Bossy, Interfering, Dogmatic and Intolerant

Leo's charisma and innate ability to lead guarantee they will almost always be at center stage--a place where they love to be. Leos are so full of warmth and optimism it is impossible to not find their company pleasurable. Fearless, powerful and dignified by nature, Leos make great leaders. The force of their will guarantees any task they tackle will be completed. While they may seem domineering, even despotic at times, their goal is always to ensure the well being of all those in their kingdom. Ever-confident Leos are also creative, idealistic and have an indefatigable lust for life. When leadership is required, a Leo is what is needed. They will get the job done right and on time. Leos also have a talent for bringing the very best out in those around them. Warm-hearted Leos love to have fun, and will go out of their way to make sure those around them are having fun too! Leos love games of all kinds. They are risk takers and will plunge into new ventures on impulse, confident their talents will ensure success. Strong and honorable, optimistic and fun, few will find the Leo's charms easy to resist.

The Leo In Love: When in love, Leo's love of fun is only outdone by the romantic in them. They are faithful lovers with a passion that may seem too hot to handle! Leos may not always be willing to try new things which did not spring from their own fantasies, but a clever lover may slowly introduce new methods of expressing love to their relationship. Once the Leo realizes they are fun they will be won over.Leos sometimes cling to bad relationships because their egos will not allow them to admit they may have made a mistake. Also, being forever optimistic, it is impossible for a Leo to see any problem as insurmountable.Overall, the Leo will prove to be a wonderful mate. Their love of children makes them a natural parent. They are generous, warm and truly want the best for everyone. Their loyalty and sense of honor makes it unlikely they will be indiscrete.

Famous Leos Include: Mae West, Napoleon Bonaparte, Andy Warhol, Simon Bolivar, George Bernard Shaw, Maxfield Parish, Omar Khayyam, Peggy Fleming, Carl G. Jung, Stanley Kubrick, Mick Jagger, Jackie Onaissis, Charles Schwab, and Arnold Schwarzenegger

Ideal Jobs Include: Leos are well-suited to be managers, architects, inventors, teachers, athletes and presidents.
Lucky Numbers: 5, 14, 13, 32, 41, 50

Planet: The Sun

Star Stone: Ruby

Element: Fire

Most Compatible With: Sagittarius or Aries

The Time Traveler's Wife on 3rd Sept!!

and before i forget....
The Time Traveler's Wife is in cinemas on 3rd Sep!!!
I CAN'T WAIT!
:D :D
anyone want go watch with me??

I Think I Need Some Love ❤

我得先过我自己这关，才能放得下。
但这一关感觉上好难过啊！


seriously this is getting the better of me.
i just seemed to be showing my temper at her in one way or another.
somehow i just felt irritated by her presence.
is it because of jealously?
i don't know what to do.
come on
i have got to stop all my nonsense
iam being childish
it isn't her fault anyway
it's my fault;my fault for feeling jealous at such teeny weeny stuffs.


somehow, i just want to be loved by someone
i need all the support and help i could get


我觉得我对你的感觉已开始淡化了。
开始想通了吧。
你不会属于我，也永远不会属于我。
这一切都是单方面的。我的幻想。
我应停止也该停止这一切。
希望我尽快把你给忘了。

singing in the rain the MV version

not that much of his dancing... bt it's still cool anyway.. :D

and 不屑 by 小鬼 very very nice!!! i like!! :D

潘玮柏's new songs also very nice!!!

The Time Traveller's Wife

very nice trialer...very nice movie...
just the trialer made me cry le...
dunno singapore will show e movie or not....
i hope so...i wan to see!!!
so so NICE!! :D

❤ DANCE-ING!

a pretty COOL video~~ ❤ NICE :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sf19kjrakqU

go to this url to see too!

YOU NO LIFE I GOT LIFE LOR!

den when eating dessert that time,we were eating something like mousse this is what she says....
den i suddenly say '哇！下面有cake lehhs!'
den she say me like '土包子' or like something like noob like tat la...
WTH!
so wat she know...
she everytime go here eat there eat...den eat very ex de stuff...den know everything lor...go here and dere oso...
i nt as rich as you ok...my parents not like your parents ok
asshole
den she say '不懂也装懂嘛 真丢脸'
ass la...this is too much le lor!
SO WAT U KNEW EVERYTHING! SO WAT!
everytime oso like that...
u can speak soft i cannot...
u speak soft i huh you den u give me that face...
i speak soft den u oso give me that face...
den you make fun of me by huh-ing me even though you can perfectly hear what iam saying...and i cannot give you that face...
WTH
everything oso you correct...
always rolls your eyes at things...
den pretend to be cool by not laughing in class or in front others...
den will never be high or be interested in things...
always rush home first thing aft bell rings...and expects others to be like you...
so no life...
and...do you noe that you are very BAD-TEMPERED??
too much things to say..better nt write too much...
lest she found out this blog den i die...
veryvery irritated le...
more of these den i will get super pissed...
den 可能连朋友也没得做...
Zzzz..irritated
too hard to say all in words

FATE OR NOT?

有缘无份
好可惜呀。
我想只差那么一点点而已，就可能做朋友了。
老天还真会作弄人，让人有缘，同时也让同一个人无份。
为什么吗？！

seems incoherent...bt ya...

we was showed about someone from Britian's Got Talent show during today's talk about stress management...
George Sampson -- a dancer who got first in e show
he danced really well man...really well...
he's really GOOD..
and he's only like 15??
gawd
he still have some kind of sickness that time man...
bt he perservered...
really touching... i see until i nearly cried...really nice...
he's strong...and have a GREAT passion for dancing...
really GREAT when i meant GREAT...
you can see it in his words...
really great guy...
maybe can see some clips of him in youtube...
GO SEE!!

INSPIRING

IAM INSPIRED BY HIM TO LEARN DANCING.

AND TO PERSERVER AND HAVE PASSION IN WHATEVER I DO.

NO!!!!

I got a feeling that jealously will soon be taking over me.
And this is BADDDD.
VERY BAD
Iam starting to dislike the people around you.
Damn!!
This is shitty wrong to think like that.
NONONONO
stupid jealously is making me one bad guy.
STOP.

take me away

i must forget;i must ignore
let me get over you....soon...

i cried after reading a touching book about a dog
it died
the book is nice and touching
i have a soft spot for dogs and touching things...
....and a charming smile....

Forgotten

i really dun tink anyone rmb...
when i say no one,i mean NO ONE

she said she wan lend me e bk
in e end she brought e bk to someone else for her b'dae present
wth
and she kept asking me when my b'dae was...
den she keep saying she will buy me present...
bt she nv did
stupid friend

HAIZ

I don't think anyone will remember
I think iam in for a disappointment

CRUSHED

why do i keep wanting to hav a peek at you?
i noe i shouldn't...really..
bt i just can't stop myself...
i hope sec4 life is over so i wun wan to take a peek...
bt i can't bear for it to be over
cos i could never get a peek den...
i dun tink u even knew of my existence...

NEW!

another blog
so HALO there!
:D