BLEH BLAH BLEH WHATEVER

YOU SUCK.

LIKE TOTALLY.

You Are EVIL

Do I owe you in my past life?
Why do I have to suffer under your wrath now?
You are evil and scheming.
You are scary ; Real scary.
You used me before and now you throw me aside after using me.
ONCE AGAIN IT HAPPENS.
Didn't you ever learn your lesson?

I would not hesitate to swear here.
You are one sucker evil act cute scheming woman.
So what you are beautiful cute and likable?
I do know that everyone likes you.
EVERYONE. Especially guys.
SO WHAT?
You have a bad personality and a black heart.
Scheming too scheming till it's scary.
I can never beat you in anything.

I JUST HOPE THAT I WOULD NEVER EVER HAVE ANY CONNECTIONS WITH YOU AGAIN.
NEVER EVER AGAIN WILL I FALL INTO YOUR PLANNED TRAP!
NEVER!
LEAVE ME ALONE MAN!
MY LIFE IS MUCH MUCH BETTER WITHOUT YOU.
YOU ARE A BAD FRIEND.
BAD BAD BADDY

And you Do affect my mood EVEY SINGLE TIME;
If you ever do realise that.

MIXED ; JUMBLED

Iam so having mixed feelings.
And I don't know why.
Like I did something Iam not supposed to...
My stomach is all jumbled up and it seems that it had been tied in knots.
My throat seemed stuck.
Okay, maybe I know.
It might be because of what you juse said.
' I thought you won't want to eat so ex de? '
It got me thinking of why you said that.
My gut feelings.
Should I or should I not go for the feast?

And even though I got a job;
I didn't feel particularly happy.
It should be because that it was you who recommend me the job.
I used to think we couldn't be friends like before.
I wanted to cut all ties with you and never contact you again.
But you keep recommeding jobs to me like we are best of friends.
But I know we are not.
And you know it too.
It's just totally awkward between us.
We didn't have much to talk about.
You changed and I changed.
There's a lot of awkward pauses when we meet up;
When we talk;
Or when we are on the phone.
It's SO SO awkward to meet up with you.
I don't know what you are thinking.
I can't guess.
I can't read you.
I just hope to disappear at that moment when the awkward pauses appear.
And now I owe you favours cause you recommended me jobs.
Maybe you asked me because maybe you felt that you are definitely better than me?
I don't know.
What I do know is that I definitely felt inferior when Iam with you.
You are skinner; prettier ; your skin is good ; you excel in both sports and studies.
How can I ever compare with you?
You seem more independent now and very cold too.
I feel like Iam standing next to an iceberg.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to think.
Why do you find me?
Why?
What should I do?
Get me out of this awkardness.
Help me.

I've got no friends.

NICE~~

This is very nice :D
Nice song Nice voice Nice chorus Cute guy
Lol
I like the chorus most :D

The only thing is that the voice and mouth don't match :D

A Teenager's Life

Lol
I think Iam on my teenager road or something..
Whatever you call them..
Lol

I've got a sudden urge to be loved or love someone...
Gosh I wanted a relationship..
What am I thinking?!?!
Alamak
Very crazy of me to think of such stuffs...
Lucky only mei xuan could see this... :P
So pai sei sia... :p

Haizzz...
Can't believe I won't be going to the same school or see my friends again...
Except for that time when we get our results...
Some go JC some go poly...
Some go this course some go that course...
So even if we go into same poly or JC...
We might not go into the same course or see each other...
Which also means I won't get to see you...
My first crush too.
And some other infatuations...
Lol
I think they all look cute... :p

GOSH
See see that's what I call ' the road to teenager doom '
Lol
Kks I made that up...
I mean the teenager doom thing...
Can't think of what represented this so I just anyhow make something out.. :p

Haizz...
Having crushes are like so 辛苦 sia...
Plus all the crushes I have is like so wrong de...
They all have somebody else that they like de lor...
Den is like definitely no chance de...
Chanceless ; Hopeless
Plus nxt year all will change again...
But I will never ever forget the first crush I had...
Cause it's a FIRST...

Yeap...
All will change nxt year...
I will have to continue to be optimistic...
But Iam not sure how long I can be optimistic...

This is driving me nutty...
Lol
I seem desperate...
LOL and DOUBLE LOL

A Night To Remember ❤ NCHS Prom Night

On 20/11/2009.
I went for my first prom.
I wore my first dress.
I put on my first make up.
However it is so little that I can't even see it myself.
And wore shoes that are quite girl.
Although it's not heels.
It was the first time that Iam so girl.
Even if it wasn't womanly girl but it was still girl to me.
Iam like a tomboy mahh.
:P
Like gosh I can't even believe it myself.
But it happened.
I gave quite a lot of my first to this prom.
Man...should be honoured.
I should nave just wore some manly clothes.
LOL
But...It was great experience.
I did have fun.
I took photos.
I did these before...lol...
Running around to get pictures of those I know.
Cause if not, I would not have the chance anymore.
Even though I didn't manage to get pictures of everyone.
I did manage to get some pictures with those I never thought I would take with...
If it wasn't charmaine and valerie that went to take with them first, I wouldn't even get the chance to take pictures with them too...
Lol I was so nervous.
Scary nervous.
But I didn't manage to get to take some photos with a few others.
I don't have the courage to go up to them.
Lol
But...
It was definitely a night to remember ❤


Iam happy today :D
Super duper happy :D

2012!!!

THERE'S JUST ONE WORD FOR IT!


FABULOUSA

AMAZING


OK MAYBE TWO WORDS

IT'S TOO NICE TO CONVEY THROUGH WORDS!

I HEART 2012 THE MOVIE!!

AWKWARDNESS

There's only one word for yesterday...

AWKWARDNESS

You changed a lot.
So much that I think I don't know you anymore.
You have thined down so so much.
I can see your bones poking.
How don't know how you did that.
But it's shocking.
I think yesterday was our last outing officially.
I guess we won't get to see or go out again after this.
Actually I can't even strike a conversation with you now.
We didn't even talk much yesterday.
You feel so far away.
Let yesterday be the last.
Because all I can feel is awkwardness between us.
My friend my Sec3 that I know is gone.
Hope all there's left is happy memories.

OVERWHELMED WITH EMOTIONS

Iam so overwhelmed with emotions.
Graduation yesterday.
Four years past just like that.
Even though ours is not the best class or something.
I will miss all the years I spent in NCHS.
I will miss my class.
I will miss some people.
I will miss trainings.
I will miss Basketball.
I will miss SCHOOL.
Sang the school song yesterday.
This is the first time we all sang the school song that loudly.
Should be our last official school song le.
Nearly cried yesterday.
And cried like crazy today when I think about yesterday.
I DON'T WANT TO GRADUATE MAN.
Iam always the one who can't bear to leave.
Maybe Iam scared of leaving my comfort zone.
Iam scared of the totally new environment I will be facing.
Iam scared that I will not get to see you anymore.
Iam scared that I will get to peek at you again.
Haiz..Didn't bring my camera to take photos yesterday.
I so REGRET it now.
And I look so stupid in all the photos I took yesterday.
I closed my eyes in all photos.
So Iam not posting them.
All those memories flashed past.
All my friends;All those happy moments.
I cried like mad.
I can still continue to cry now.
WHY?

p.s. Talked to someone whom I thought would never talk to me.
p.p.s. I JUST LOVE ' I DO I DO' !!! :D

All I Can Say Is Whao

whao!
iam pretty amazed :D
how cool is this?!
imagine this scene happening in S'pore...
well can't really imagine it... cos it will never happen..
i guess?
what do you think?